Michael talked with God often. They seemed to have a good relationship until this point in Chapter 5 and now in 6 when he started questioning God and doubting himself.
“Lord, you said to do Your Will and I am trying. But does it have to hurt much?”
I know how Michael feels. I can’t tell you the times when I definitely know I am in God’s Will. Often with it comes painful humbling, resentful repentance, not sure why, If He loved me; would He make me crawl like this?
I did it but wasn’t always happy about it.
Michael left Angel in Pair-a-Dice physically but he couldn’t get her off his mind.
That’s how it feels when God is asking you to step up and do what He says. You know in your heart He never lets you down and it always works out when you follow His Will. Yet you hold back, you rebel, you postpone. I have anyway, how about you?
He was hesitant to go back but He followed God’s Will.
I am so glad Michael went back and listened to God’s nudging. Michael said to Angel as he carried her out of her room at the Palace: broken, black and blue, barely alive:
“I want to marry you before we get out of town.” What choice did she have? Angel said, ” I would marry Satan himself if that will get me out of the Palace… By the way, my name isn’t Mara. It’s Angel.”
His face hardened.
“Angel was a prostitute in Pair-a-Dice, she doesn’t exist anymore. You are my Wife .”
Ever wanted to change your name?
Sometimes my friends and I would change our names but more to escape. But here in our story, Angel is getting a new chance at a new life if only she could see it. Right now she still hurts and needs Michael help to do things but soon she will get her own place and get out of the business.
Michael had left all of Angels things when they left. She had nothing. He said he would provide all she needed. Our heavenly Father tells us that. Are we satisfied knowing that?
Are we like Angel as we say with a forced smile,
“I will forever be grateful for this bounty” mocking Michael as he gives her his sisters old clothes to wear.
Angel doesn’t know a thing about Michael, farming, doing chores or cooking. Michael with such patience is trying to teach her. I just can’t help seeing over and over the Fathers Love for us as Michael loves the wife God gave him.
How sad that Angel thought the only think “right” she could do was offer pleasure to satisfy Michael. That was all she knew how to do. It wasn’t working though.
Yet Michael was in love with her without a sexual component.
I have been there. Being the life of the party I was very popular in more ways than I care to share. I eventually realized that they only wanted me in the bedroom not to take home to mom or go on nice places. It took me several years to figure that out. All my teenage life actually.
I hope Angel sees Michaels true love for her and God as we read the next 5 chapters together.
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